Hey, I was just wondering if I am the only person on the planet who finds themselves anticipating something for peroid of time…building up excitement for a new experience; only to find myself on the edge of the unknown with a big bowl of mixed emotions? Have you ever been on the brink of something major; a life changing place only to have second thoughts, maybe thirds and fourths? 
Wierd I know…but, anytime I get to a place that i have worked hard to get to…or, achieve a life experience that I have, just by growing and changing; I start having all of these emotions and thoughts running through my head.
Oh to be sure, there is excitement, a sense of accomplishment, joy, happiness, a burst of energy, a need to tell the world; but the flip side of that is fear, an intense worry about failure, bittersweet sadness/joy, unhappiness, lethargy/laziness, and a need to keep things a secret, in case it doesn’t work out. After all, what if the thing I worked so hard for, so longed for, waited until i came of age for…doesn’t measure up…or worse, what if I blow it? What if people find out that the very thing that i went after; I wasn’t equipped to do?
Geez, Louise, somebody could expect something from me…such as success, accomplishment, and or an ability to change the world with my achievement. Then what? Oh the agony of getting there only to be frozen in the moment. Hmmm what to do?
This is the gift of living with purpose, with goals, with expectation…this is what many graduates are now experiencing. Whether it be high school, college, or a milestone at work, or personal relationships; this big bowl of mixed emotions is served on a silver platter. Here’s the thing, try to remember that not everything rests upon your achievement or failure…joy can be found on the journey as well. You just never know where your journey is going to take you; and, some of the best things in life can be found on the little side trips that you dare to risk taking.
I know it is hard; push through it anyway…you will be rewarded. Your goal is in sight…and your path will be made clear from both the successes and the “failures” (I call them u-turns). The trick is to just keep going…keep putting one foot in front of the other, look for things to enjoy along the way! Continue learning, continue growing, continue exploring until you find your passion…that alone, will push you through any obstacle that plops itself down in your pathway! Oh by the way, congratulations on whatever milestone you have hit…what’s next? Whatever it is, go for it, enjoy it…learn from it and share it with the world!
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